And I am particularly thankful because I got my new machine FIXED!
It turned out to be a problem with outdated drivers. Boy, how I regretted buying that
Driver Detective many months back but now I am quite happy about it because it helped
me fix 2 VEXING difficulties, the display problem and the network problem.
It was $25, you know.
But wonderful, everything is fixed now. And I woke up this evening so depressed (I didn’t visit anyone for Thanksgiving, you know).
So, again, Happy Thanksgiving and I hope you will think of what you are really grateful for.
My movie for today was Forgetting Sarah Marshall. It was an interesting relationship movie.
Brought up some interesting ideas for me but I have been taken over by the new computer on which I have installed XP Pro. I seem to be having problems there.
I can’t change the display settings and when I finally did find a unique way to do that, in Display Properties, Advanced, Adapter the screen went Safe Mode. You know that screen don’t you?
So, I looked up how to open it up in Safe Mode thinking I could do something there but I couldn’t open it up in Safe Mode. I seem to need the disk to get things going and it says Boot from Disk? and of course I don’t want it to do that.
There is a system setup screen that comes on. I must have a look at that.
Had 2 baked potatoes today. Oh, and I learned that the delicious New York Ravioli I’ve been eating is made with eggs. So much for my Hare Krsna life.
I’ve gotta watch out for these potatoes though. They get me BIG!
I’m watching a movie called The Event about the assisted suicide death of an AIDS victim. I noticed a beautiful room. When I was young I used to notice rooms like that thinking I would live in one some day, I guess.
I’ve just been thinking about my credit card debt and what a good boy I’ve been. Of course, a good boy is relative. They don’t write checks from their mothers’ check books when she is sleeping. They don’t copy information from her check book, but I guess good boys might get to be put on mom’s account which might make them think they are entitled to such information. Still they have to wonder how much they are entitled to.
I remember once I had gone to Leesburg (FL) for a conference of the Florida Students of the Urantia Book. I think it cost something over $200. Maybe it was $250. It was a little ride as Leesburg isn’t so far from us, but when I came back I went and bought a car stereo. I bought one that played both tapes and CDs which made it a little more expensive than a strict CD player. Mom was very upset that I had bought it without telling her.
Sometimes I wonder if mom got upset about these things over the loneliness we both experienced throughout the 80’s and 90’s and into the 21st Century. Did she want to share in my purchase? Was it fun for her to buy things and so she wanted to know what I wanted to buy?
I wonder this because I have a bit of that feeling myself. While I was in school, although I was getting stoned every day, I missed not being clued in to mom’s buying a car or a TV. I think dad’s being home, in retirement, created a distance between mom and I. Though I announced to every friend I made in school how I loved my mom, some seemed to take my love as coming from her permissiveness. The conflict between the left and the right, the hippies and the rednecks made it seem that way, but what was missed was that in retirement and moving to Florida I was getting more distant from mom. There was my brother’s marriage, too and his staying with his betrothed in N.Y. I had no him.
Could be it was this kind of lack that gave me what I did have in FL. The intelligent friends, the teachers who welcomed me into their homes and the great wild rock and roll.
Anyway, this movie reminds me of mom’s dying a little bit. We all have to die. We ignore it and we should not. Of course we do take out our life insurances and think of our loved ones should the event occur without notice, but I think this was not the kind of awareness of death Baba Muktananda was speaking of when he wrote Does Death Really Exist? Nor is it the societal ignorance of death that Adidam speaks about in Easy Death.
I lost a blog entry. I had entered a post about watching a movie called The Event, a movie about assisted suicide for a victim of AIDS.
I added some things that my muse was offering, like the hot looking singles rooms I thought might some day be my abode but never were.
Now the post has disappeared. Oh I had commented on being a good boy. That was funny.
Oh, it was open at another tab in “preview.” I just clicked post and now it appears I wrote it after this note and the one about the computers.
Have I told you I bought some things from EBay. A computer tower and an operating system.
I bought the tower for just over $100 but it had no OS. So, I bought XP Pro.
I was just confusing XP Pro with XP 2000 which you can use on multiple systems.
I have XP Home on my central computer. I just bought a huge Hard Drive for it but I didn’t
put the OS on it. I’ve been transferring files and programs to it. I think it’s a 350 GB Hard Drive I bought and it seems a bit wasted. I also bought Partition Magic which allows me to put multiple operating systems on a machine. I can’t depend on it because I haven’t been able to make a single partition with it so far. How can I depend on it putting another OS on the machine if it can’t do the other thing it says it can do which is create partitions. Wasted $70 on Norton’s Partition Magic. My advice, don’t buy that one. I have seen the one by PowerQuest.
Searching just now, Norton claims to have purchased that same software. I don’t know. Just doesn’t work for me.
So, now, I could put XP Pro on the XP Home computer or put it on the new one which will be arriving soon, I hope. The computer is a DELL GX260 TOWER COMPUTER P4-2.26GHZ 1GB RAM 80GB DVDRW. It was $115. The OS was $145 but I just saw it advertised at Tiger Direct for $139.95. I suppose shipping would make up the difference. I could buy a Vista Premium and set it up on the new computer but I’m using an old monitor, an old keyboard and an old mouse so I guess I’ll just stay with my plan and use this old OS.
Finished my driving school last night. I worried that I wouldn’t pass the final test because it had been kind of difficult to read but I got an 85, which is what I needed.
Went to a dinner on Saturday night to raise money to buy a projector for Key 6 initiations in knowledge. I gave them $20 when the asking price was $15, but it was a good meal even if I did have to watch how much I ate because of the diabetes. What really made it worth it were the people and beyond that the location and music, too. Live music. It was very nice.
Seem to have a job lead. New Horizons a private school teaching computer sciences called me and said they had positions on staff available. Gee, I never thought of it, could they be looking for teachers? I spoke with a fellow and he sounded very positive.
My friend Michelle came by to use the computer. As a house cleaner all of her assets are in her back and I guess she is getting tired and not interested in doing so many houses lately but it is affecting her bank account. She’s about to lose her car and she has had to disconnect the internet.
She’s kind of cheery woman, a single mother of 3 but 2 of them are grown up. She only has little Hopey now who is 8 years old. My brother asked me when he was down a while back who was my favorite relative. I thought the question was so ridiculous that now I’m thinking maybe the answer was Michelle since I see more of her than any relative. I did see my Aunt Ruth on election day. I was leaving the polling place and she was coming in. It was nice to see her but I haven’t seen the cousins in a long time. I did see Idell at mom’s funeral and I ran into Steve a year or so before mom was stricken.
I keep thinking of how I could have saved mom, how the hospitals might have saved her, how a different society might have saved her. Her fitness center had to close down when the economy got so bad after 9/11. I kept wanting to get her a treadmill because that was all she use to use but the money pinch kept getting in the way. I didn’t know money as well as I do now although I probably had access to a lot more then if I could get by mom’s dissent or my own selfishness.
I got a haircut. It’s real short now.
And I went to my own fitness center yesterday. Walked for half an hour. Did a bit of trotting. I trot for a minute, 3 times. It really works on me. I couldnt’ do much more. Maybe that’s what the scotch is doing to me. I am concerned about my weight as the pounds that I had taken off seem to be creeping back up on me. My cardiologist did say I lost 9 pounds since the last time I saw him but I know I have lost about 20 or more since then. I gave into an urge for potatoes. That’s probably the chief problem. I considered them a little gift to myself.
I bought this terrific clock called the Enso clock. You can set meditation times with it. I have practice knowledge with it and it works very well. One of its alarms is a GONG sound. It’s terrific but a little expensive at $100. Still, I saw the lack of timing device such a hindrance in my meditation that I am delighted to have this light little digital device to sound the great Buddha’s Gong when my incrememts of meditation are done.
Had some problems with the new phone I’ve gotten. Net10. I’m supposed to just pay 10 cents a minute and 300 minutes were included with the purchase of the phone but I see I only have those 300 minutes until Dec. 21. They had activated the phone with my other cell phone number but when I found out that ending my service to that phone would cost $150.00 I had them change the phone number. I asked CREDO not to cancel my subscription and they said they would get back to me later about the cancellation but they haven’t.
Makes me kind of angry.
And then I bought these 2 $5 glasses from Pier 1 Imports and the first one broke the day I bought it and the second one busted just a couple of days ago. I guess I bought them a couple of weeks ago.
Boy, you should see some of the computers they have for sale at Best Buy. Incredible touch screen computers. They didn’t seem expensive either. I also looked at the TVs at Best Buy. Boy the 60 inch Plasm is beautiful but expensive at over $5,000. I wonder if the equipment you need comes with that. I think there is a 200 HD converter that needs to be bought, but then I have DTV and would have to get a dish that works with the HD and probably there is a converter that they give you in that case.
Remembering there is nothing but Shiva. He is the universal Truth. It’s interesting. I use om namah shivaya so frequently. Knowledge does not require a mantra but I know Gurumayi would say it is still an awakening of the Kundalini. And I think Maharaj doesn’t care as long as you find Peace.
Sadgurunath Maharaj ki jay!
And then there are these ripoffs like GrantMaster. They are charging me 49.95 a month for some thing. Apparently an online thing. Seeing it on my Amex card I looked it up and apparently I had gotten a disk. I finally found that in my cluttered house and stuck it in the ROM. There was supposed to be a password but I didn’t see where to imput one. And there was a website where a password was to be imput but I didn’t see that text box either. It isn’t that I’m blind or computer illiterate. I did get to see a long, long list of grants I could apply for but when you get to the grant you may want you have to pay another fee it appears. I have applied for food stamps and student grants and loans and I know what a difficult task it is so now, pay these fees and then go through the daunting task of the application which is bound to require all kinds of personal information concerning your assets. What a ripoff. In fact today, doing a search for GrantMaster I saw it listed at ripoff.org.
And CIC, a credit report business I thought I had cancelled shows up again. It appears on a different credit card than it was when I cancelled it. Another bit of business I must take care of. These are the results of being in need. The poor get poorer they say and it’s clearly because they are taken advantage of, ripped off for what little they have.
OK, that’ s enough for now. I have to go to the store and get my prescription – at Wal-Mart and I need to get some other things such as sugar. You know I am unprepared for a guest that takes sugar in their tea or coffee so I’ll get 5 lbs. of sugar today and put some in a little bowl for Michelle who may be coming over more frequently to do her Ebay business. Oh , do you want to look at what Michelle has for sale? Right now I only know she goes by the name michopeios.